Remembering my first meeting

I joined weight watchers around February 2009. I really should look that up and remember it properly. I still have the first passport book they gave me. I was the biggest I'd ever remembered being, but somehow I didn't really have a concept of how overweight I was. I guess its different comparing yourself to a health BMI rather than comparing yourself to the people you see around you, cause lets face it - there are a lot of big people out there.
A doctor who worked for my employer wrote me a letter which also was copied to a few others in the company. The gist of the letter was that if I didn't loose weight he would not recommend me to go back to my job overseas because the risks were to high for someone "extremely obese" I still think that was over the top. Obese is one of those words that just doesn't need a quantifier. I was angry, hurt and embarassed that others also saw his letter. Besides I had come back with plans for a second baby, not a pressure test of weight loss!
The good news at the end of this story is that I managed to do both. Had the second baby and lost enough that I was approved to return overseas.
So I went to my first weight watchers meeting with anger in my heart thinking "I'll show that judgmental, nasty Dr." But I came home from my first meeting feeling so much worse! I was crying all over my husband! I felt absolutely awful.
This part of the story is not an add for weight watchers. The leader at my meeting sighed when I came in. She obviously didn't believe I could do it. She treated me like I was wasting her time during the registration. She was explaining the first week 18 point fast start plan to me and another girl that was new that night, and she says "but you won't be able to do that dear, you'll get too hungry". But didn't tell me what I should do! She starts the meeting, and goes on and on about how she makes sure she has enough points for her alcohol, and her fanatical weighing of every element of every meal. I'm sitting there thinking " I don't EVER want to be like her!" Here's a woman who exchanged one addiction/obsession for a whole 'nother set!
So afterward I mention to her that my husband and I were trying for another baby, and could I continue if I got pregnant. She got all weird about that, but I guess she was right - it was a higher priority for me than my weight loss was.
Thankfully what I read online and in the magazine etc, was a lot more helpful. I lost 7kg in those first 8 weeks until I did get pregnant! They say that loosing 5% of your body weight at any weight doubles your fertility.
More of my story next time....