back on track :)

My period finally came 23 days late. My body is definately relieved. I feel a bit emotional, I really had got my hopes up. But now after a few days getting my head around it I am ready to get back on track and who knows? maybe I can get finished with those last 13kg before the next baby comes! Wouldn't that be great? No more trying to find plus sized maternity clothes :) I've lost more than a kilo in the last three days, while my body drains all that water etc. it had been holding on to. I also feel more in control, less swayed by cravings and emotional eating. My husband and I have made a menu for evening meals, so I should have a little more stability there :)
Also, opened the first jar of preserved raspberries that I canned in the autumn. Yummy! In winter it can be hard here to find enough fresh fruit and veggies.

phantom pregnancy

I gained two weeks in a row! :( I have had other gains along the way but this is the first time ever two weeks in a row. Thankfully I didn't make it three and I was down this week, (although not as down as I had come up) My period is also totally out of wack, (3 weeks late now!) but 4 negative preg tests should have me convinced its not that. still confusing. How long should I wait before I go to a doctor? bearing in mind that this is totally unusual for me, and also hat Im living in a foreign country where going to the doctor is not just easily done.

FINALLY back at water areobics this morning, which felt real good, I also went friday. They closed over the holidays which I'm sure also contributed to two weeks gain. And our daughter did not have kinder those weeks so there went my 2 half hour walks to drop her off and pick her up. plus all the new years candy ;P

Gonna buy a new swim suit when I get to 80kg.

free fall

I'm in a bit of a free fall, and I don't really know how to stop, mostly cause I haven't yet decided to stop. Stupid chocolates in fancy gift boxes all over the house, and left over white chocolate in the fridge. I'm sick of mandarines and that's mostly all I can get right now. Almost want to open a can of raspberries that I put up few months ago, but I don't want to yet! I have peaches, I should eat some canned peaches. Still no period, second pregnancy test also negative, now 7 days over. Arggg.

not the best start to the new year :S

So, after an awesome Christmas loss I have promptly followed that with a new years gain :S I am not happy about that. Why do I go up and down like this? Some of it is water retention. I am also 4 days late but the test comes up negative. I'm sure that has something to do with this weeks gain, both physically and emotionally. Kinda not sure where I am right now.